memories

memories

what are they

are they real

are they what we want them to be

or

what they are

memories make me sad

i want memories to be happy

i'm afraid what i thought was happy is not

do we have control or any real sense of what a memory is or should be

or

is it just what it is

what is, is

or

do we have control

i do not think so

or

maybe we have some control but only of our own actions

not other's actions emotions or feelings

that makes me sad

no matter how honest or dishonest i was with me or anyone

i had no control of helping

i tried

i wanted to help so bad

 i couldn't sacrifice my spirit and self

i am so sorry i could not help and be there

i will never be ok with this

i am so sorry

i tried to be there in the way i could

i'm sorry forever

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